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me
12:34 PM
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11:34 AM
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me
12:47 PM
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only you can make me smile.
me
12:33 PM
me
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me
1:27 PM
Thursday, June 30, 2005
i've seen the light. i aint gonna be no love sick idiot, putting cliche phrases in my blog. I aint gonna keep holding on to something that seems impossible. i'll let nature take its course. so til then, im gonna just be myself wherever i am, i aint gonna wear no mask no more. but all these i'l do, maybe after just one more talk, one more try.
me
12:34 PM
Monday, June 27, 2005
So school's starting and i haven't woken up from this holiday slumber
me
11:53 AM
Sunday, June 26, 2005
something's wrong with me.
woke up at 8, and just lazed around at home alone, tried playing some guitar and messing around with some words.
typical asshole wasting a typical day.
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why do i feel like something's missing?
wait, cos something IS missing, you.
im wasted.
something's wrong with me.
woke up at 8, and just lazed around at home alone, tried playing some guitar and messing around with some words.
typical asshole wasting a typical day.
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why do i feel like something's missing?
wait, cos something IS missing, you.
me
11:34 AM
Thursday, June 23, 2005
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blog.
about?
how i am still hoping, waiting?
so what does it all mean?
what does it all mean to try so hard to get the right words out?
i've already come clean, i've given my all, but i have my doubts.
i've screwed up.
if only everything was a fairytale.
while i've been wasting my life away, i've been wondering. so what happens after secondary school? you just graduate and move on? so secondary school is just a transition, a stopover of four years before moving on to something bigger? can't imagine moving on. so you make new friends in your tertiary institutes, but still, will you forget your secondary school? the times you play ball toghether, skipped class toghether, trash talked in class toghether, laugh toghether, cry toghether, share your problems with them, had long talks about affairs of the heart. if thats the case, i don't want to move on.
/
blog.
about?
how i am still hoping, waiting?
so what does it all mean?
what does it all mean to try so hard to get the right words out?
i've already come clean, i've given my all, but i have my doubts.
i've screwed up.
if only everything was a fairytale.
me
10:45 AM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
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aight, nothing else to update.
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without you, there is no life
added music to my list by the albums. the former songs i had in the list cnat work, dont bother trying them.
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aight, nothing else to update.
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without you, there is no life
me
3:38 PM
Friday, June 17, 2005
me
12:47 PM
wrote a shitload of crap to you. im sorry. wasn't thinking right while writing it. i promise i'll do it right the next time around, provided there is a next time. so til then, take care.
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only you can make me smile.
me
12:33 PM
well, i screwed up. now you are in the air, returning home, while i'll be here, missing you.
me
1:40 AM
Thursday, June 16, 2005
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daymn, i'll miss her, and them.
she'll be leaving on a jet plane in 9 hours
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daymn, i'll miss her, and them.
me
2:41 PM
Monday, June 13, 2005
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Talking about time, its funny how we view it. We always want to turn back time, and yet, cant wait for years to pass so that we may watch R21 movies or enter pubs. Can't wait for months to pass so that we may grow one year older. Cant wait for the days to pass as we can't stand the anticipating the future. And yet, we, at times, want to turn back time so badly. Ain't it funny? How we always want to trust everyone, and yet, its our own minds that creates so much distrust and conflict. And all these contradiction in our thoughts and actions, just for the main reason of selfishness, for one's benefit. In life, we can't always bake our own cake and eat it.
And so the Sec 2 camp ends. My main concern was the campfire, and it turned out to be a success, judging from the Sec 2's response. Man, watchig the camp from an outsider's view, made me miss facilitating camps. The fun and joy i had leading the campers in songs and games. It may sound cliche, but how i wish i can turn back time.
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Talking about time, its funny how we view it. We always want to turn back time, and yet, cant wait for years to pass so that we may watch R21 movies or enter pubs. Can't wait for months to pass so that we may grow one year older. Cant wait for the days to pass as we can't stand the anticipating the future. And yet, we, at times, want to turn back time so badly. Ain't it funny? How we always want to trust everyone, and yet, its our own minds that creates so much distrust and conflict. And all these contradiction in our thoughts and actions, just for the main reason of selfishness, for one's benefit. In life, we can't always bake our own cake and eat it.
me
9:12 AM
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Why am I trying so hard to be someone I'm not? I've been wearing this mask for so long, its hard to take it off.
me
1:07 PM
Monday, June 06, 2005
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ahhhhh, and pool. i played pool two times in a week. god dammit. wasting too much money, but pool's fun anyways. im getting lousier, not that im any good to start with. poolitix's closed, not sure if its for good, or just temporarily. went to monstercue instead. quite a good place, poolitix's still better.
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taekwon-do. man, went to training today and i see so many new black belters. time is really catching up on me. cant even fully complete the usual set of exercises. and everything in my mind seems messed up. i really wanna excel in this. its the only thing i have confidence in.
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the day of reckoning.
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man, im talking shitloads of stuff today. well, ima bounce. peace.
so what do i say? nothing great's happening in my life. feeling as tho everything's goin downhill. ya, bout yesterday, went for 1e5's chalet. cyled around, bbq-ed around, eat around, typical chalet conditions. but the people there are great, tho me, dixon and zhe xuan ended up setting up the pits. and bbq-ing the food for them. thanks for the invitation, if anyone of you is here now.
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ahhhhh, and pool. i played pool two times in a week. god dammit. wasting too much money, but pool's fun anyways. im getting lousier, not that im any good to start with. poolitix's closed, not sure if its for good, or just temporarily. went to monstercue instead. quite a good place, poolitix's still better.
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taekwon-do. man, went to training today and i see so many new black belters. time is really catching up on me. cant even fully complete the usual set of exercises. and everything in my mind seems messed up. i really wanna excel in this. its the only thing i have confidence in.
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the day of reckoning.
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man, im talking shitloads of stuff today. well, ima bounce. peace.
me
1:27 PM
